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JEFF KIRBY


The Rusty Toque | Issue 13 | Poetry | November 30, 2017

[When the Gardens were] The Gardens

Allen Gardens. 4AM. Positively cherubic boy stands near the front fountains (I thought she was
the fountain) wants me to pee in his pampers. Who am I to deny such a simple ask? She
writhes, giggles, squeals. Omg girl so glad this is working for you. Such joy! After, she implores
me to send more her way. I cross the path to where a dozen or so, pants bunched at their
ankles, jack, suck, blow, watch one ploughed so hard, the fucker’s ass backs into the plate glass
of the greenhouse—B A N G—an entire sheet crashes you’ve never seen so many queens pull
up their shorts so fast skedaddle the hell out of there. 4:31. A youth lays across a park bench lit
by lamppost in what turns out to be just the lining cut out of a speedo brimming with cock. UBL*
I invite him back to my place. He wants me to do him there. This bench. This lamppost. His
scene. His setting. I pull out my poppers lose my entire face, his bulge, my all. Boy pulls me off
​each time he gets close, loves to focus, edge til dawn.



*Ultimate Bulge Lover

Adonis


incandescent light radiates
from his torso, and in the curve
of his loins, a smile turns - Rilke  



No one will find me

my regular table
back of the library
hidden alone with
The Village Voice

scour each new
issue weekly to see if
anything has
changed
any new personal
beginning with GWM

Pictured,
a single line
drawing
suggests a
male torso
etched in
every fantasy
I’ve had since
puberty

ALL  MALE  HOT
Adonis 8th Av
These Bases Are
Loaded Centurions
of Rome Kansas City
Trucking Co.


“seventh explosive
week!!!”


I’m sixteen
going on
seventeen
at Rogers High
School Toledo
Ohio

“Home of the Rams.”

Our senior trip?
New York City.
$49 total. Bus.
Room. Meals.
Show. The Adonis.

I grow a beard
board the bus.

Saturday I break
from my peers
on my own in
Times Sq. head
towards Al Parker.

“Want to buy this?”

I stare at the multi-
Colored glass tube.

“What’s it for?”

“To get a bigger hit, man.”

He called me man.
A good sign.

Then I see it
The lit marquee
XXX CONTINUOUS
ALL MALE ADULTS
ONLY pace
back forth beneath
nearly two hours
afraid to go in afraid
they won’t let me
plunge plunk
down six bucks she
hands me a ticket
a pair of glasses —

Yes. It was the first
and only gay male porn
film shot in 3D

J Brian’s RAW COUNTRY


inside eyes adjust
two grand staircases
a rotunda of faces
rush the main floor
duo-colored
glasses in hand

find my place.

Two men
on a swing
a raging
cock sways
overhead

I’m here.

I made it.

I am at the Adonis.
JEFF KIRBY’S newest is She’s Having a Doris Day (Knife From Book, 2017). Earlier chapbooks include Simple Enough, Cock & Soul, Bob’s boy, and The world is fucked and sometimes beautiful. There work appears in numerous anthologies beginning with the letter Q, and most recently online at Matrix Magazine and bandcamp/jeffkirby. Kirby is the owner/publisher of knife | fork | book.
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